Monday, November 26, 2012

Adding my own to dating advice cliches!

Months have passed and I haven’t had a chance to write something which will blow your mind! I still haven’t, but I’m writing any way, without delay. So these days I am absolutely free- I do have some very crucial things to be taken care of, like my career, family issues and breakups, but they can wait. I have decided to deal with everything in a systematic way just like our government- where key priority is the chronological order of the files, not the gravity of the issue. So this overly delayed blog post is here now and my bleeding eye can be nursed later.

Many friends have been asking me when I am going to get married. For some strange reason, they figure that I am the one going to be married soon. Maybe some kind of frustration-induced-frown-line of being single is etched prominently on my face or maybe the bliss and peace of my single-hood and independence is just too much for them to bear! Either way, I am going to address the issue at hand here- dating advice. Dating is a dynamic concept which changes across age levels. For some, dating is a distraction, for some it is about sexual companionship, for some it is about financial stability and so on. Having a companion by your side has never hurt anybody (yeah right! :P). It has only made things worthwhile. It makes your achievements seem bigger and your failures seem smaller. It beautiful while it lasts and for some when it ends! 

Relationships are mistaken to be like a chemical ‘mixture’ where each person brings their own ‘properties’ and together they form something which keeps both their interests, dreams and ‘properties’ intact. If you ask me, it is a mistake to believe. As we grow up, relationships become more like the chemical ‘compounds’ in which both the people come together with their own ‘properties’ but when intertwined, form a strange bond where they lose pretty much everything which they brought along with them and form something completely new. The definitive properties of this ‘new compound’ obviously depend upon their previous traits but don’t relate to them in any way- much like the chemical bonding process. Just to answer the curious ones here, we shall discuss the biological properties and the change in their levels in a separate post because this is a family blog (or so I’d like to project!).

My personal experience although has been pretty varied but the sample in question is kind of flawed and cannot be considered representative. But on the up-side, I have been a keen observer. So as a female, I would advise you to stay away from certain kinds of guys-

1. Guys who think that their girlfriends are trying to break them up with their family- WHAT THE ***! Why would you think that? And if you really DO think that way and if it’s true, why’re you still dating her?

2. Guys who do not place importance on education- Seriously girls, get over rich guys who haven’t earned it on their own merit! Just like the money they have inherited, their self-esteem will be gone in no time and so will your respect for them.

3. Men who never have time- Yes, I know it is clich├ęd but if they don’t give you a decent amount of time, they are NOT worth it. If he is into you, he WILL make time. This statement is not for psycho-obsessive women folk who want the guy to be there 24x7 by their side but nobody can rule out or underestimate the importance of time and communication.

4. Guys who use words like ‘slut’, ‘bitch’ or ‘hoebags’- Today it might be another girl, a girl that you don’t like, but tomorrow it could be you! JUST STAY AWAY.

5. Guys who are afraid of you- I know, this category is tempting to be with, but NO, stay away! It's not 'cute' or 'sweet'! It's dumb. Such guys cannot be true partners because initially the will support you in everything just because they are afraid of your anger or to avoid arguments but these guys will nurture all this grudge inside, involuntarily, and then leave you suddenly one day for reasons you will never be able to decipher! Find a man who can point out your mistakes, help you rectify them and still loves you the same!

Ok enough for today! There are of course a million DOs and DON’Ts which you already know and which we come across every day, but these are just some specific additions to that Black-list! Will write more soon. Take care.

Monday, August 6, 2012

A poem about a writer.

There he goes,
Look at him,
For he has the most adventurous job ever.
He travels to places,
He has smelled beautiful fragrances,
He is a son, a brother, an animal, a killer,
An insect , a child, a mother, a mirror.
As random as you could possibly
Imagine; Imagine a river,
He could be a pebble, he could be the loam,
Whatever the storyline demands, he shall deliver.

There he goes,

Look at him,
For he has the most romantic job ever.
Every emotion is not felt by him
Even then he imagines,
What would it be like to be in love?
Yet that temptation is resisted by him.
How would it feel to get your heart broken?
What would it be like to deliver a baby?
What would it be like to have your memories stolen?
His mind's eye can take any shape, any form.


I wouldn’t know if it is by choice
That he dreams,
Of so many colours and so many themes.
Because he is yet to live through them himself?
Or has he actually seen it all? Felt it all?

There he goes,

Look at him,
For he has the loneliest job ever.
Nobody sits beside him
And guides his hand.
Nobody has traveled with him
To his wonderland.
Yet he brings to us
The sweet fruits of that tree
Which he nurtured all by himself,
From a tender acorn to a sturdy oak
 And bearing the fruits of his thought.

There he goes,

Look at him,
For he has the most rewarding job ever.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Rant #1

It took me 7180 miles away from you to think clearly. This is a different world altogether. We are an unimaginable distance apart. We cannot reach each other at a moment’s or even a day’s notice. Still too young to earn enough money to travel impulsively; oddly, old enough to nurture such strong feelings. I can hardly recall the details of your facial features. Distance should not blur memories. But, does it?

It seems like a long time ago when we were carefree and had all the time in the world for each other. We would kill hours deciding on how to waste the next few ones! Good times. Those times still don’t fail to bring a faint laughter within, which dies soon after. This city literally never sleeps. Buzzing with life. There is not much here which reminds me of you. I have begun to think that it might be the ‘places’ which made me fall in love with you. I wonder if it would feel the same if I had gone out with somebody else to all those places you took me to.

I still find those hazy memories giving me a heartache. And sometimes, even a headache! But I am proud of myself for not ruining my self-respect. The moments of recalling you are becoming less frequent. Thankfully so, I believe. You seem imaginary because of such geographical distance between us. It’s a strange feeling. Unknown. I feel lost sometimes. Disoriented. I see the goals others have etched out for me. I am still unclear about what I want.

Am I at fault for not being too ambitious? is the purpose of life, ambition? I am constantly made to feel how lucky I am to have come here. To have got an opportunity to learn here. Am I bad person if I want to let this all go and come back? This doesn’t feel home. This doesn’t smell like home. These people don’t consider me as one of the friends. The simmering dislike inside them for me is almost tangible. How can it make me feel any good?
Everything appears changed. A familiar colour of skin here and there, a rare fume of spices somewhere is what keeps me hopeful. I shall do my best, capture every good thing that this city has to offer and come back to you. I keep forgetting there is no ‘you’ anymore in my life. And there was never an ‘us’. Would it be worse to be back and find out that the place has become significantly tormenting? Maybe staying here offers an illusionary comfort of having a home back there. Where I was, with you. That could keep my hope alive. A life in a dream bubble is what I opt for.

Oh look, rain! My pages have their ink smudged. There are blots on the paper. Much like my memories of you. It continues to rain in this cold. And the ‘city-which-never-sleeps’ is digging its sharp cold deep claws in me.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

No defence against memories

“Quick! Quick! Let me get you dressed! Come here you! Arghh…”. His wife shouted at the kids.

They had come to visit London, with family. Four years of marriage and this was their first trip abroad so the level of excitement was one notch upper than the usual. He had a conference to attend there and thought that a family trip would do some good to the daily argumentative routine. Today was the day for shopping. They were supposed to go to Oxford Street. He just could not resist the thought he was avoiding since the moment he landed at Heathrow- the thought of the girl from his past who he loved dearly. And who loved him back with the same intensity. He finally let the barricades of morality break open, in his head.

He clearly remembered her address- #4, 51 Hill Street, London W1J 6SW (he used her address to tell her all the nearest stores and other details she wanted to know! Not that she could not do it herself but just because he liked doing it for her and she let him do it). He abruptly blurted out, “I got to go”. The wife was busy dressing up the kids and hearing this, she suddenly stopped- “what? Why? Where?” He reassured her, “I will meet you directly at the oxford street, in two hours. There is an urgent meeting at my office before leaving London”. She reluctantly agreed.

He took a cab and gave the driver the address which he had remembered since seven years. Although the cab was supposed to drop him straight at the address, he asked the cab driver to drop him at the green park underground station. He would walk! Getting out of the cab, he saw The Ritz. A faint laughter rose within him. This is what she used to be so excited about! She was such a movie-buff; saw Notting Hill once and wanted to come here with him and stay for a day! He fed the address into his Maps-app and set out. It was supposed to be an eight minute walk. He remembered the names of the streets. Stratton Street; then left to Berkeley square, then straight to Hill Street. She used to prattle the names of these streets whenever she was returning from college. That was time they usually were on phone and he used to be distracted with some little things of his own, yet it came as a surprise when he recognised those streets by name. 

Upon reaching Berkeley square, he glanced around- had something changed? He wouldn’t know. He could smell patisseries and panini though. He couldn’t remember if she had ever described that. Unexpectedly his throat choked- she used to walk by these streets every day! She used to blabber, sometimes describing the beauty and the gloominess at the same time- much like her. He found himself standing below the building labeled 51. How he had wanted to come there while she lived here. How they both had shared dreams of living in that house. How they had imagined making sweet love together in that room whose window, he saw, was open right now. He started to weep silently. 

He collected himself after five minutes and pushed the bell for flat number four. There was no answer. He pressed it again. He believed he would find something in her old house to calm him down. To transport him into the past. Where her scent was the only sweet fragrance he could recognise. He now marveled at her description of this place. He could now understand her mood swings and constant complaints regarding the weather. It really could get gloomy in here! His thoughts were interrupted by a voice from the door-camera. “Who is it?” No, he was NOT prepared for this. He blurted out, "Sorry, wrong floor!" 

He decided that he liked her version of the house better. He had not thought about how alien or familiar the house might seem, from inside. He loved her. He loved her in a way nobody had. She had meant everything to him once. He often used to tell her how beautiful she was. She used to playfully respond that he was biased but that never failed to make her blush. They were so lost when they were talking to each other on phone that they never could keep a track of time. They never got tired of each other’s company, bored of each other’s humour. They pushed each other’s limits and it made them broaden their horizons towards life. Both of them thought that the other one is a better person and the respect and love only grew with time and distance. It was a fairy tale. Until she came back to India, where he was.

He decided to block her from his mind, the disappointing and unhappy memories. She would always be that beautiful girl for him- who didn’t like to be called a little kid, the one who had big eyes, one who would imitate his lame guy friends and make him laugh, one who would fight with him because he could not stay awake to talk her, one who was scared of his mom, and who could never see him upset and be passive about it. If anybody would have asked him, his only regret in life would be not to have expressed his love to her the way she deserved. The things he felt, the beautiful moments he lived everyday never could come out in the form of words. It was never for one moment that his feelings were in any way inferior to hers. The difference lied in the total expression of them.

He decided to walk back. This time through the Park Lane, where she always used to get confused whether to stand and look at the beautiful swans at the Hyde Park or to stare at the swanky cars which passed by. “It really is tough to decide”, the thought amused him!
He was walking to Oxford Street, her favourite hang-out, where now his wife and kids were waiting for him to come.